We are happy, but maybe that's not enough

Sometimes we go to distant places to complete our tasks, and I mean very, very distant places. Some of our tasks involve destruction and death, but we're always doing it coolly. I never really cared about anyone else anyway, so whatever I have to do I will do. If bringing death to someone is my mission, I'll do it without regret. And the Twins seems to be of the same type, se really knows when se's doing the right thing and every reason to not back up like a coward. I quite adore that coolness of hem, it's like se's not afraid of anyone besides God. But yesterday I saw a different face of hem. That's right, the writer today is me, the Water Bearer.

Yesterday, as usual, we went and brought calamity upon another destined location. With the mission done, I was preparing to leave, but se just stood there, thinking. For a moment se just stared at the destroyed landscape, then se raised hes hands and looked at them. As I approached hem, se broke into tears, and told me se regrets hes inability to save anyone. That is true, so far the tasks we've conducted mostly consist of destruction. It wasn't because that's the only thing we're told to do, but because it's the easiest thing to do. Till then, I thought that as long as we're happy, anything else doesn't matter.

After all, what we're doing is not wrong either. But indeed, it's not that we're doing the wrong thing, it's that we're not doing enough. Instead of just sending messages of death, we should've chosen missions as saviors. There are so many people waiting to be rescued, waiting for us to convey the words of God, but what did we do? We ignored them, and kept on saying what we have is enough. In fact, I only thought about me and my companions' happiness. Never for once did I think about how others would feel. I should've realized that there are people waiting. Those people who are ignorant, are our responsibilities, not anyone else. If we're not doing the conveying, who will?

I then looked into the far future. In the end, eventhough we ourselves will be saved, how about others? The people I used to know, though they are as annoying as ever, I don't want to see them suffer the worst of punishment for eternity. By then everything would be too late. If that happens, no matter how I blame myself, nothing will change. If I want to change something, I have to do it now. I loathe other people, yes, I hate most people, but I have to face it. The responsibility is ours, I don't want to regret for eternity. I must try to save as much people as I could before it's too late. Never again will we make the same mistake. Our happiness is not enough, because if we're the only one satisfied, that won't guarantee true happiness. It's hard, but I'll change.