You put all that stuff down your throat, and where do they go?

It was last night at 2a.m., I had a friend visiting my house. So I waited till that friend fell asleep on my bed before sneaking out to the Water Bearer's room. We were just killing time, when we came into the topic on anger. Here is the conversation we had:

WB: You know, I was wondering why the more I get upset by someone, the worse things turn out. Like, those who despise me just despise me more, well I don't care about that. But those who say they like me just won't stop chasing after me. Don't you experience the same thing?

T: Well, I used to have an experience like that, but not any longer.

WB: You mean that time when someone insulted you and you did that face, you really meant it?

T: Haha. Sure, insults don't work on me anymore. Getting angry is just-

WB: A waste of energy. >D

T: Yeah. If you're going to use that energy, use it in a better way.

WB: Now that I recall, usually you seem not to notice the insults. I don't think you're pretending to ignore, are you?

T: I'm not sure about that either. In the end I just happen to forget I ever heard such things. Usually my soul-system processes information faster than my brain can, so I hardly notice anything I don't like. Simply said, it's like my soul-system filters everything before my brain can interpret them.

WB: Sounds nice. How did you do that?

T: If I think about it carefully, I think it goes like this. First information comes, and then the system judges whether it's plausible or not, because I remember noticing for a split second when someone just said something offensive. And if the information is dislikable, before it can reach the brain for further comprehension, the system just delete the information as if it never existed.

WB: So it's like you know that there is a deleted information, but you just don't bother to find out what it was?

T: You really understand me best. OwO

WB: Of course I do. /:)

T: You see, if you get angry, you use a lot of energy to suppress that feeling. But if you prevent the information from coming through in the first place, you'll spend less energy, most of the time, and you'll live better.

WB: ...most of the time?

T: *sighs* Sometimes it takes a LOT more.

WB: Then, isn't it the same? You use like the same amount of energy. And anyway, isn't spending energy better? I'd hate getting fat. >D

T: *lmao* Yes, energy should be used. I'm just using that term of waste of energy coz I like it. XP

WB: .... but since it is infuriating when things don't turn out the way I want to. Usually, I'm totally fine even if people hate me, it's not like I need them anyway. Still, there are times when they get on my nerves too much my head hurts.

T: That is what happens when you use energy the wrong way. Well, to be exact, the hormones exerted when you are angry can disturb your health. So even though prevention sometimes takes a lot more energy, it is always better than not. The only side-effect you'll get is tiredness.

WB: ... I want to be like you...

T: *grins* Actually I liked the way you get upset over things.

WB: Huh?

T: Because it shows how downright honest you are at expressing your feelings. It was one of your charms that attracted my attention.

WB: *blushes* Still, I should change!

T: It's fine even if you change now, coz I already know who you are. :>

WB: .... I thought you said you'd change me back if I ever change.

T: >D

WB: Aughhh... Hikaru!!!

T: What??

WB: Help me decide!

T: Whether you should change or not?

WB: *pouts*

T: *lol* I can't help it! Your angry face is just too cute! *lol*

WB: Hikaru, you... maika, I'm tired of thinking about that. Waste of energy. >D

T: Hehe. You don't need to push yourself to change. I thought you what I know, so you'll slowly adhere to it somehow. Don't worry.

WB: *touched* Thanks...

T: *sighes* I'm gonna miss that face..

WB: You have a weird hobby. />

T: I'm unusual.

WB: But Hikaru, I think you should get angry sometimes. I mean like last time, remember how tired you got home because you suppressed your anger too much after being insulted by that jerk?

T: Don't remind me of such a time.

WB: No really, try bursting out. I think you'll feel refreshed.

T: I can't do it. I just...

WB: You're too kind.

T: Haih... I get down easily if someone gets mad at me for what I really did, so I don't want to do the same to others. Even to such a person..

WB: So you can't think of any other solution besides avoiding such people.

T: Yeah.

WB: ... If I used to do the same to you?

T: I'll never fall in love with anyone who ever gets angry with me.

WB: O-O Close call..

T: Now that you mention it, how come you treat me differently ever since the first time?

WB: ... I'm not telling.

T: >D Yes you are.

WB: Nu'uh. >///<

T: You will eventually. *smirks* Will you ever get angry at me? o-o

WB: What the-..I can't even think of doing such a thing...!

T: Have you ever thought of me as annoying or noisy or whatsoever?

WB: You know me better than that. /D

T: Just wanted to make sure. >w<

WB: You are insecure, aren't you?

T: Unfortunately, yeah. But I believe in my companions.

WB: But Hikaru, you have everything. Why me? Why us?

T: We're just fated that way.

WB: Taking it easy huh? /D

And... anyway, as usual we got off topic. But who cares, lol.