Someone we used to know so well

TT: What would you think if I tell you I've killed someone before?

WB: O-o... I thought you've done that at least a few times?

TT: Honestly you... >w<...

WB: Why suddenly bring that up?

TT: The White Wind.

WB: *jealous* What about hem.

TT: I killed someone that WW know as well as I do.

WB: And.. se's upset somehow?

TT: Emotionless as usual actually.

WB: Hmmm... you know I'm losing the point here.

TT: Se, the one dead, left only one thing behind.

WB: *listening intently* ...

TT: I went to that place and saw that though se died, a lot of people show appreciation for the thing se left behind. They don't seem to realize se's dead, but they're accepting hem as someone... as someone they would like to know.

WB: Was se a hateful guy?

TT: Heh. Se's useless.

WB: ??

TT: Se spent so much time with WW, yet se abandoned hem a lot of time. You know, though WW can be really annoying, se wouldn't say something that hurt seriously. That guy was kinda close to WW, so se couldn't do as much as complain whenever se was abandoned.

WB: Wah. That's serious. To think someone could actually do that to WW.

TT: Se could. But that's not why I decided to kill hem.

WB: *shocked* You mean it wasn't an order from the organization??

TT: ... it was on impulse. *bitter smile*

WB: Did you... have a fight?

TT: We always fight because of WW.

WB: Hes existence is starting to tick me off. *annoyed*

TT: Who? WW?

WB: Who else? Why do you have to care too much about that bloodless being? *blink* Not that I'm trying to be rude but...

TT: Do I look like I actually care? XD

WB: Well you fought for hem.

TT: Ah, that's the only person I fought with because of WW. WW is not the type to be offended at all by anyone. So it's hard for me to see when se's abandoned by the one who was always by hes side.

WB: Isn't that... what was the name again.., the Black Hole was always with hem? Se isn't the one you killed, is se?

TT: Haha, don't be silly! *lol* Of course not BH!

WB: *phew* I'd be shocked if it was hem.

TT: *interested* Why would you? OwO *eyes sparkling*

WB: *stutter* Err, that, because se seemed just as important to you as WW is..

TT: True. *looking faraway* They're both my important family-like beings.

WB: *staring* Ah, I see..

TT: Hmph. *grin* Of course you are more important to me. *leant forward*

WB: *blush* You mean it?

TT: Come on, I don't lie.

WB: *still insecure*

TT: Like, last time you misunderstood my relationship with the Vines, but it turned out ok right? ;D

WB: OoO It's the same kind with those two???

TT: Ack! No! It's not the same! *embarassed* It was just a comparison.

WB: Don't give me heart attack. There's no way you'd have that kind of interest in them. *shudder*

TT: If you keep saying that I'm gonna fall sick too. *turn blue*

WB: ... what were we talking about again?

TT: You're right. It's better to forget that horrible imagination.

WB: *giggle* Wait till WW hears this.

TT: *lol*

WB: So who was it, that being capable of offending those red-eyed twins?

TT: They're not twins.

WB: I'm aware.

TT: Se was a part of me that stood by itself.

WB: ?!!

TT: I believe you've realized I'm lacking a lot of things.

WB: Yeah, a lot. Is that where they went? Into another form?

TT: Other forms. It's not only one.

WB: *worried* Wait, are you fine telling me this?

TT: No, I'm not ready yet. But I want you to know about this one that got loose.

WB: *grip hand* If you are that sure, then go on.

TT: *sigh* I lost it. My confidence's gone.

WB: Then don't do it.

TT: *stare in the eyes* ...

WB: When you're ready to talk, I'm always here to listen. :>

TT: I want to tell you, but I can't find the words.

WB: Hmmm... maybe your inability to hate is the cause.

TT: I despise hem. I wanted hem to disappear forever. *upset*

WB: You... actually hate someone? Even more.. yourself?!

TT: Because se's part of me that I'm able to despise hem. Se was more a bad stain in my memories than anything.

WB: *quiet*

TT: Se was stupid, attention-loving, and easily fooled. Se played with humans the wrong way, then got rejected and put the burden on WW and BH. Argh! But now I don't know why I hated hem. It wasn't because of what se did to them, nor who se was. I've forgotten.

WB: Hikaru! Are you planning on reviving hem? It won't work, you'll just regret it!

TT: No, I don't.

WB: *grab shoulders* Listen to me..!

TT: Huh?

WB: What did they say? About hem?

TT: *thinking* Nothing... none at all.

WB: Do they even remind you of hem?

TT: ..no

WB: Do they need hem more than you?

TT: I don't.. think so.

WB: You understand them better than me. If they fare off better with just you, why should there be another you to make things complicated? I bet they like this way better too!

TT: *chagrined smile* You're right. They don't seem to want this brought up too.

WB: Even if you killed a part of you, as long as the you that I know is with me, I love you as who you are. I don't want another you either, especially one without sense of responsibility. In fact, somehow I'm also glad you killed hem! What would se have caused if se was still here.

TT: ... I should have that part of memory erased then. I have no use of it.

WB: Heh. As long as you keep going to those places, erasing your memories would bring no good.

TT: *smile* You're always right. Why don't I pass it on to you then, this memory?

WB: I wish I could. Then I can get to know you better.

TT: You already know me better than most people.

WB: I'm sure WW knows a lot more.

TT: Oh that's for sure.

WB: *jealousy, jealousy*

TT: But I don't want to see hes face all the time.

WB: Ha..? *burst into laughter*

TT: *place hand on head* I'm always glad I met you.

WB: Can't beat mine though. ;>

***

These Days...

I am not supposed to be playing around at the moment. (Such an important work yet to be done!)

But I happen to like playing around. ;D

I am the Twins. A bit formal, oh haha. Though I thought I was going to be the only one regularly updating here, the Water Bearer has started using this as a medium to get my attention. (lol) No wonder se writes so often (or it could just be pure love for publicity). Ah I'm gonna get hit after this. ;P

Remember the half a year break? I should give it a name. The Drive Period. That should be a good enough name. I was driven to work on only one place, which is Grin Zeraga, the place I was born. Ahh it was long but it felt short, yet it was short and it felt so long. Know what I mean? It was a confusing period. Not for me then, but for me now. Back then I was so enthusiastic, after quitting I wonder what was I doing. 仲間だって？冗談じゃない。仲間なんか、ここだけじゃなくて、どこにもいる。もちろんここにある仲間たちの存在にやっと気付かせてくれたけど、それでなんだ？目をつぶって何でも言うことをきけって言いたいわけ？"With closed eyes"... huh? I recall the Water Bearer asked me about the same thing during that period.

WB: マジであんな奴らでいいの？

TT: あら、なんでかしら？

WB: あたしなら全然仲間と呼べないけどね。

TT: 僕の世は君の世と違って、純粋な人なんて、超珍しい。だからあんな人たちでも、勘弁やで。

WB: 絶対認めないからね！*crossing arms*

TT: ハハ。どうしたんだよ。信じてくれないか、僕の直感を？

WB: 今回だけ、どうしてもあんたの選んだ仲間を認めらんない。

TT: だったら僕が間違ってんのかな。。？

WB: きっとそうだよ！だって、嫌な気がするし。。

TT: でもさあ。。。目標は僕たちと同じだよ。

WB: ＊目をそらしながら＊何かがだめ。。。どこか、いけない。。

あの時全然気付かなかった、あいつが言いたいことを。目標が同じだからって何だ？確かに、僕はそれを聞いて興奮した。興奮しすぎてつい次々と連れて行ってしまう。ここまでだな。やっと気付いた。WBの違和感も、わかった気がする。

The Drive Association itself, I won't mark it as anything negative. Something is not right, and that is all. In fact if they are really on the same path as ours, they would understand why I decided to quit and pursue a better one. They are doing what I need to do, but they are not the best. Simply put, that is all.

The person who was managing me during DP asked me if I was serious about leaving. My mistake was to never let them see the real side of me, this side of me that works between dimensions along with the posture to remain who I am. I hid it on purpose, because they weren't ready to accept it. So when the manager came to me, I was fully assured that it was time to let hem see who I was. But I don't think se understood. Se probably even think I was someone else, a completely different being from what se used to know. This kind of misunderstanding is so often I've completely ignored it. DP was not all, but it wasn't so bad. At least I know who I can reach when the time comes to surprise the sleeping people of Grin Zeraga.

Little did I know that while I was thinking of this, something new was occurring on Keen Xenocis. We're still looking into this matter, before it becomes uncontrolled. I only realized it when I was taken captive by one of my comrades, the Sky.

A few days before it happened, I had this conversation with WB.

TT: な、君の言う通り、仕事を変えてるけど、お願いしたいことがある。

WB: うん、何？

TT: いくら仕事を変えても、僕の敵はいつでも襲ってくるのは違いない。いつかまた浚われるかもしれない。これからも、何回も繰り返し。

WB: 。。。冗談やめてよ。何、お願いって？まさか変なことしないでよ。

TT: その時は、僕の助けに来ないでほしい。

WB: Are you kidding?? How am I supposed to do nothing when you're like that???

TT: I don't die easily. Though it's hard, there's always a way for me to survive. But I don't want any harm to befall you. What if you get hurt to a condition you can't recover? What should I do if you die?

WB: But.. but..

TT: I love you dearly. I can't bear losing you.

WB: You're right. It is better if we're not there. After all...

TT: ... after all, what?

WB: Nothing. I understand. But promise that you'll stay alive, and come home safely.

TT: *smile* Of course.

Then it happened. That day I lowered my guard and stepped into the Sky's arte circle by accident. When I regained consciousness, a week had passed. The Sky was planning to let me starve to death, so when se saw me alive se pinned me down with pokers and left me to bleed to death.

The rest, as I heard from others. The Sky kept a spycam inside the room I was held, apparently to see if I still manage to survive. (Se sure knows how well I can go through things like that). Hes colleague, who happened to be a tech geek and just returned from abroad found the line to the spycam and informed WB to gather people and infiltrate TS's getaway cabin (where I was). At first WB was reluctant, remembering what I said to hem, but se was shown the video where I was alive and bleeding, se rushed to the rescue.... which made things difficult.

After TS left the cabin I pulled off the pokers by force and made for the jungle outside. Looking for a place to hide and recover, I went up a tall tree and hid among the branches (don't ask how I climbed it). After a few hours I saw TS looking for me. A few minutes after se disappeared, WB's troupe appeared, obviously following the blood trail. The trail of course stopped abruptly beneath the tree I was hiding. I thought of calling out to them, but stopped when I saw TS watching them from behind the trees. Just as I was thinking how worse things could turn should they find me, WB went up the tree and saw me, calling out my name. かなり最悪だった。

TS wasted no time and snatched me away from them, taking me to the boat by the beach. My healing wounds were ripped open by the rough treatment and I had no enough strength to struggle. As se made hes getaway, with the chasing troupe close behind, se threatened to throw me into the sea. Probably se saw the immediate fear on my face when se said that, and gleeing, se threw me off the boat. Fear of the dark waters overcame me. I thought I was gonna die for real.

In the end they managed to catch up to TS, and WB jumped into the ocean to save me. Then they left the two of us in one room for medication. WB is the healer after all.

WB: Sorry... it was my fault...

TT: As to be expected from my rival. TS had it for you, didn't se?

WB: Maybe if I wasn't too rough on hem this wouldn't happen.

TT: We wouldn't know. And it's not like hem either to do this. Something is not right.

WB: ....

TT: Why are you still crying? Don't cry. I'm still alive, see?

WB: But I made you go through all that. If I didn't discover your hiding place, you wouldn't have been thrown into the ocean that you hate so much. *sobs*

TT: ... *joking* I don't hate the ocean.

WB: You fear it! You fear the ocean!

TT: Okay, that's true. Hehe.

WB: I'm sorry. I promised you I wouldn't come and make things worse, but when I see you bleed that much I...- *cry*

TT: ... make things worse? You didn't... um, it did spoil my escape plan, but not so bad. But more importantly, that's not the reason I forbid you to come.

WB: You can't say it right? The truth is our being here is just a burden to you. I can accept it, it's fact. いつも足を引っ張ってるでしょ？

TT: そんな。。。馬鹿言わないで。いくら君たちが足を引っ張ってても、僕は構わないよ。本当の気持ちわかってるから。だけど、もし君たちに何かあったら、それはもう悲しくて悲しくて。。だから来るなって。

I thought so, that WB was feeling like se was being a burden to me. I hope that's settled though.

What I felt wrong about TS was right. Se wasn't being hemself no thanks to the spell that took over hem. That is what we are investigating currently.

Oh, and something seems to have happened between the Golden Flower and the Red Star. 展開、楽しみだね。;)

Short update

Back after a long 'holiday' with my beloved the Twins (lol).

A day after going to Ajiaga Vuon, the Twins sent me hes usual daily message. The first 2, 3 days I sent hem replies. Then I decided to stay silent. After that se started calling me though I refused to pick up the phone. But later I found out that I was stupid to leave the phone on, coz se tracked me down using the very device. (;>->)

Over a week since coming to Ajiaga Vuon, I who didn't realize that the Twins was already tracking me down at the moment, started to lose hope on reconciling. I blamed myself for all the selfishness, and felt urged to drive back home. While I quarrel with my own thoughts in a lavish cafe, people dressed in black rushed inside and started firing guns. It was a robbery attempt for the bank that sat on the 2nd floor of the building.

As they began to take us hostages, I tried to hide but one of them saw me and we recognized each other. Five of them were the very people who bumped into me the other day and tried to assault me, but ended up eating the pavement instead. I guess they saw the very good chance for payback, so holding a gun at my head they herded me back into the cafe. Then, obviously still afraid of what I could do to them single-handedly, they took a kid hostage before starting to beat me up.

I wasn't in the mood to fight nor to protest, in fact I thought it was punishment for being cruel to the Twins. They gave up on me after seeing me just lay there without response. Then I heard securities outside surrounding the building. With blood trickling down my forehead, I heard them talking about killing one hostage to proof to those outside that they were serious about getting away unharmed. Then I felt the mouth of a gun on my head, and I thought to myself, to the Twins to forgive me.

The trigger was pulled back, but then they stopped when they saw the squads outside backing down. Silence followed for a few seconds, till the door was broken open by a figure that I knew very well. The Twins stepped through the door post and walked towards the robbers without blinking an eye. Without losing composure, one of them grabbed the same kid and started threatening the Twins.

TT: I don't care what you do to everyone else. I'm just here to take hem home. *pointing at WB*

I couldn't help but stare at hem with tears in my eyes. Here I was purposely running away from hem and getting into trouble, but se still came to find me without a doubt. Then the robber threw away the kid and held me by the hair instead, threatening to shoot. The Twins saw the blood on my face and, wasting no time, started to break necks and arms. The guns having been tampered without them knowing it, the robbers fled upstairs, leaving only one of their biggest people to wrestle against the Twins. The Twins who was in maniac mode almost killed hes opponent till I stopped hem, telling hem it was enough.

Securities took care of the rest while the Twins took me to my family's house where I'd been residing for days.

TT: Are you angry at me?

WB: ...

TT: What should I do to make you forgive me?

WB: ... nothing.

TT: If you keep that up, I might lose it for real.

WB: You're not gonna lose me.

TT: *smiles*

WB: You're always not there when I need you.

TT: ...

WB: And you always come back hurt and broken.

Silence.

WB: After getting to know you, I thought I could cope with having the traveler as a partner.

TT: What should I say to make you feel better?

WB: *starts to sob* I want you, not the traveler.

TT: *looks away*

WB: But you are the traveler. And I can't do anything but accept it. I.., I wanted to protect you, to be the one to heal your injuries. I'm the healer!... but you were always dying in my arms... Why? Why??

TT: *holding WB's hand* You are my healer.

WB: I wanted to have more smiles with you.

TT: *grips hard*

WB: Why can't I just destroy that organization?? *frustrated*

TT: *giggles, but with tears* If the organization dies, so will I.

WB: I don't want you to go on a mission without me, nor do I want to go on a mission with you.

TT: *confused*

WB: I want you here.

TT: I understand. I'll make the organization give me a different job, one that you will like.

WB: You can do that??

TT: Well, I could.

WB: Why didn't you say earlier!

TT: Ehehe, because I like my current job... I guess. XP

WB: Get a one year break, right this moment.

TT: That's cruel!

WB: One year or one week? Choose.

TT: I'll get one month, for my beloved. X*

WB: *blushes* Make sure you really get it.

TT: Leave it to me.

The Twins got hes break, and we went far for honey-.. erhm.. uhk, I mean 'holiday'. Just came back from it, and we're happy. ;)