I hurt myself very badly one day, and exactly at that time the Twins was occupied with hes duty in Grin Zeraga, but se came as soon as I gave hem a call. From hes expression I knew se was very tired from work, but se came to me with a smile and endured a few sleepless nights to help me eventhough I know better that se gets weaker with every minute unspent for rest. I know the Twins would feel it unnecessary for me to write such a thing in this space, but I'm so touched I feel I need to share it.
Around that time, the Twins happened to have a straight 4 days of being within an area and conducting several things for hes undercover, and I just had to destroy it by calling hem and telling hem the bad news. Actually we, as in us in Xenosica, lost contact with one of our members, the Red Star, and couldn't find hes tracks anywhere. I knew it wasn't a good idea to be telling the Twins about that at that time, but probably telepathy works faster than calls, and when se called me to check up on us, I blurted out the truth to hem. Immediately se requested for back-up to replace hes character in Grin Zeraga so se could return to Xenosica to help us look for the Red Star. But it happened that there was no one to replace hem that day, so se used time leap to get back to us while working in Grin Zeraga at the same time.
Both places se worked day and night with very little rest yet never complained about it. I noticed from hes expression that hes work there was more than a headache as usual and asked hem if se was okay. Se just told me things are tough but se'll endure without giving in to anger. Later se told me about the challenges se's had those first 2 days, and from there I admired hes ability to suppress hes fatigue and anger despite the ridiculous behavior of mammals called humans.
Anyway, what really got to me was hes willingness to work in two places at almost the same time with the same level of difficulty despite the fact se could have just left the work of looking for the Red Star to us. You see, the Golden Flower, the Red Star, and the Blowing Wind are my lifetime companions, so when something happens to either one of them I can get very disturbed. The Twins understood that very well and sacrificed for the sake of this selfish me. I feel very guilty at the moment and yet touched. We're still looking for the Red Star and hope we will find hem soon and let the Twins get hes rest.
Down to Ajiaga Vuon
A few weeks after going to Jily, the Water Bearer mentioned to me about hes birthtown for the first time. Se barely talks about hes past to me, except for the years se lived in Xenosica, and this was the first time I heard hem talking about hes family. According to hem, hes birth-parent was a house designer and the other parent a model, whom se is very proud of, except for the fact that they were workaholic. Yes, WERE. The birth-parent died after giving birth to a sibling, 2 years younger than hem. Then the two lived under the care of the other parent for a few years till the Water Bearer was scouted by the company and left Ajiaga Vuon, hes birthtown. Se went to places a lot with the company, and it was in Jily when se heard about the accident that took the lives of hes only two-members of the family.
I was pretty much surprised since I've been with hem for years and yet I never knew about it and felt guilty.
WB: What are you feeling bad for?
TT: For not knowing you had such a past.
WB: It's not a big deal. I don't like to look at the past where nothing important existed. ;>
TT: You weren't close to your family?
WB: The sibling was a pain in the ass, and my parent was barely home. So, yeah, we're very far apart.
TT: ... at times like this I'm supposed to tell you that you need to love your family whatsoever, but I think you already know that, so I'm just gonna agree with you.
WB: Yeah, I knew you would understand. By the way..
TT: .. what?
WB: One day you should tell your side of the story.
TT: I don't have one. Well, maybe one or a few in my dreams, but they're not real, so ignore it.
WB: Someone should have given birth to you.
TT: *smugs* Of course.
WB: Was it a bad one?
TT: Probably because it wasn't good that I set the system to die a long time ago.
WB: So no one had a good past after all.
TT: That's why I dislike having kids.
WB: That's not good you know. >D
TT: I know. ;>
WB: Are you free next weekend?
TT: Supposed to. Going somewhere?
WB: I think I want to see how Ajiaga Vuon looks like now.
And so, feeling excited, we went down to Ajiaga Vuon. I've heard of the place before, but never actually set foot there, but it was (almost) like the rumors. Gigantic skyscrapers, 24-hours running concert halls, beautiful people everywhere with, a little bit too modern fashions, and night that never dies. I recall a place slightly similar in Grin Zeraga, but Ajiaga is way more developed. As usual, scouts come and tried to talk us into their businesses, but the Water Bearer used hes usual narcissist attitude to make them angry and drive them away. I wasn't feeling good with their glares, but it's unavoidable. (Watching hem irritate other people with a smile was priceless XD )
We went to pay a visit to the dead first, then moved on to hes old house. As soon as we got there, I could see hes expression changed the way it never did before. Se was like recollecting every single piece of memories se's had along living there. Se stared at every tree as if se knew them to be smaller a long time ago. Se looked at the old paved pathways as if se had stepped on them before. Se stared at mansions which I believe wasn't there when se was young, and se scrutinized every single change, every single shingle changed, every piece of window glass replaced.
We got the keys from the keeper of the house (or should I say mansion) and went inside. I saw that the keeper did a fine job keeping the place clean and sparkling eventhough no one's lived there for years. I looked at the Water Bearer and could tell that se was feeling the place looked smaller than it used to look to hem as a toddler. I saw many pictures hung and could tell from their fashion sense which was the birth-parent and which was the other. But even as I try to match them to the Water Bearer's face, I could see no more than a few similarities. I guess the Water Bearer's got hes own original beauty. The parents were of course beautiful as well, otherwise how could they have gotten into Ajiaga.
Then I came across the picture of a small child who resembled the couple a lot.
TT: That's your sibling?
WB: Yeah. I always called hem ugly back then, but somehow now.... *smiling, then frowns again* I'm not gonna say cute.
TT: Yeah right. /:)
WB: We don't even look alike. I wonder if I was really the child of this family.
TT: You're a newly evolved gene.
WB: And it's gonna end with me.
TT: It's not good to say that. >D
WB: You just have to return those words, don't you? XJ
TT: Did you get to meet hem before, um, se passed away.
WB: Once. Once my parent brought hem to Jily. Se was still an ass then.
TT: But I bet you had fun.
WB: Tiring to be exact.
TT: Yeah, playing till you get tired.
WB: *silent and eyes get glassy*
TT: I'm sorry.
WB: You're innocent Hikaru. It was their fault for coming all the way to Jily. Had they not come...
TT: ....don't tell me it was that day...
WB: *shaking off hes tears* It was like all they came to say was "Goodbye". They should have told me it was going to be our last meeting.
TT: *silent*
WB: Before they went, I even told my parent to not bring my sibling again to my workplace because I thought that was annoying. I did not tell hem to go away forever.... well, they could have just not shown up forever, but not with the fact that.....
Then the Water Bearer bursted into silent tears. I held hem close and comforted hem as best as I could. I've forgotten what my past was like, but I understand how hard it must have been on hem, to lose hes family in one blow. Unlike me who threw away all the love I've had just because I thought they were selfish, the Water Bearer only got one chance to try that before really losing it all. And now nothing will return. One day they will surely meet again, but till then it will be a long rough fight.
To Grin Zeragaiens who think their families are annoying, think again. You can act tough now while they're here, but you'll never know what you will turn into once you lose them. Family members whine and demand a lot and selfish, but we're all like that.
And those are the words you get from a couple who don't wish to have kids. >D
I was pretty much surprised since I've been with hem for years and yet I never knew about it and felt guilty.
WB: What are you feeling bad for?
TT: For not knowing you had such a past.
WB: It's not a big deal. I don't like to look at the past where nothing important existed. ;>
TT: You weren't close to your family?
WB: The sibling was a pain in the ass, and my parent was barely home. So, yeah, we're very far apart.
TT: ... at times like this I'm supposed to tell you that you need to love your family whatsoever, but I think you already know that, so I'm just gonna agree with you.
WB: Yeah, I knew you would understand. By the way..
TT: .. what?
WB: One day you should tell your side of the story.
TT: I don't have one. Well, maybe one or a few in my dreams, but they're not real, so ignore it.
WB: Someone should have given birth to you.
TT: *smugs* Of course.
WB: Was it a bad one?
TT: Probably because it wasn't good that I set the system to die a long time ago.
WB: So no one had a good past after all.
TT: That's why I dislike having kids.
WB: That's not good you know. >D
TT: I know. ;>
WB: Are you free next weekend?
TT: Supposed to. Going somewhere?
WB: I think I want to see how Ajiaga Vuon looks like now.
And so, feeling excited, we went down to Ajiaga Vuon. I've heard of the place before, but never actually set foot there, but it was (almost) like the rumors. Gigantic skyscrapers, 24-hours running concert halls, beautiful people everywhere with, a little bit too modern fashions, and night that never dies. I recall a place slightly similar in Grin Zeraga, but Ajiaga is way more developed. As usual, scouts come and tried to talk us into their businesses, but the Water Bearer used hes usual narcissist attitude to make them angry and drive them away. I wasn't feeling good with their glares, but it's unavoidable. (Watching hem irritate other people with a smile was priceless XD )
We went to pay a visit to the dead first, then moved on to hes old house. As soon as we got there, I could see hes expression changed the way it never did before. Se was like recollecting every single piece of memories se's had along living there. Se stared at every tree as if se knew them to be smaller a long time ago. Se looked at the old paved pathways as if se had stepped on them before. Se stared at mansions which I believe wasn't there when se was young, and se scrutinized every single change, every single shingle changed, every piece of window glass replaced.
We got the keys from the keeper of the house (or should I say mansion) and went inside. I saw that the keeper did a fine job keeping the place clean and sparkling eventhough no one's lived there for years. I looked at the Water Bearer and could tell that se was feeling the place looked smaller than it used to look to hem as a toddler. I saw many pictures hung and could tell from their fashion sense which was the birth-parent and which was the other. But even as I try to match them to the Water Bearer's face, I could see no more than a few similarities. I guess the Water Bearer's got hes own original beauty. The parents were of course beautiful as well, otherwise how could they have gotten into Ajiaga.
Then I came across the picture of a small child who resembled the couple a lot.
TT: That's your sibling?
WB: Yeah. I always called hem ugly back then, but somehow now.... *smiling, then frowns again* I'm not gonna say cute.
TT: Yeah right. /:)
WB: We don't even look alike. I wonder if I was really the child of this family.
TT: You're a newly evolved gene.
WB: And it's gonna end with me.
TT: It's not good to say that. >D
WB: You just have to return those words, don't you? XJ
TT: Did you get to meet hem before, um, se passed away.
WB: Once. Once my parent brought hem to Jily. Se was still an ass then.
TT: But I bet you had fun.
WB: Tiring to be exact.
TT: Yeah, playing till you get tired.
WB: *silent and eyes get glassy*
TT: I'm sorry.
WB: You're innocent Hikaru. It was their fault for coming all the way to Jily. Had they not come...
TT: ....don't tell me it was that day...
WB: *shaking off hes tears* It was like all they came to say was "Goodbye". They should have told me it was going to be our last meeting.
TT: *silent*
WB: Before they went, I even told my parent to not bring my sibling again to my workplace because I thought that was annoying. I did not tell hem to go away forever.... well, they could have just not shown up forever, but not with the fact that.....
Then the Water Bearer bursted into silent tears. I held hem close and comforted hem as best as I could. I've forgotten what my past was like, but I understand how hard it must have been on hem, to lose hes family in one blow. Unlike me who threw away all the love I've had just because I thought they were selfish, the Water Bearer only got one chance to try that before really losing it all. And now nothing will return. One day they will surely meet again, but till then it will be a long rough fight.
To Grin Zeragaiens who think their families are annoying, think again. You can act tough now while they're here, but you'll never know what you will turn into once you lose them. Family members whine and demand a lot and selfish, but we're all like that.
And those are the words you get from a couple who don't wish to have kids. >D
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