It's been a long time since we updated this page, and I just found out about the previous entry, much to my amazement. Well if se said it's a big deal, then it is, I don't intend to argue. Anyway, we did find the Red Star, and ohh, what a blast the whole thing was. *evil grin*
I'm in KX at the moment, but the Water Bearer's off somewhere else, so I'm a little lonely. Heheh. Usually I'm the one who leaves hem alone, but once in a while when it's me who's waiting I have no choice but to remember that I always make hem wait longer. A dark, silent night, and a cool breeze, how I wish se was nearby.
Umm, since se's had hes chance to monopolize the blog last time, let's have me write down a few melancholies I've had the last few days.
A few days ago I was in a snowy area in GZ for a so-called vacation, and well it was fun. Just a tiny little problem. I think I quite lost my senses while I was there. I don't know whether it was the weather or my own clumsiness that made me that way, but it was terrible. I was like, alive and kicking but my head was constantly somewhere else. Till now I think I was missing the Water Bearer, but I just don't know now.
At one point I was left alone, and I didn't realize how sad I was feeling till I noticed my relief as my then-friends came up to say hi. It's been a long time since I actually felt glad to see people I consider close to my heart. All along that time I thought I was fine. How stupid I had been.
Night fell, and I needed hem. So we talked, and I put this down for you to see. This is like a part of our somewhat exchange messages.
光光（こうひかり）
Supposed to be
That what is it?
Meaningless
When there's nothing to see
Dreaming
With eyes wide open
Wondering
Where we are standing
Some things felt fake before
But hey, this is new
Probably this is it
The state when you leave
Some things were meaningless
But this is plain ridiculous
When nothing matters at all
Is it someone we're missing?
Searching and searching
For the one that lies in front
Then se said to me
Have you forgotten something?
Yup, I forgot God
We need to get back now
As I start to feel guilty
Like a damn selfish bastard
Se just gave a hand
And snow stops falling
Left alone
I think I'm dreaming
In the past
I never knew where se was
Now I understand
Now I feel the same
But hard to explain
Jealous much
Wish se was jealous too
When I walk with another
How stupid
Green and red
White and blue
Hello tomorrow
I miss you
So easy
So lame
A white land
With blotches of red
Yeah that would be good
Sometimes we get bloodthirst
Damn cold-blooded
It's unfair
That we get too much
Hello Tomorrow
Hello Tomorrow
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You know what, the Water Bearer is just marvelous. Se always knows how I feel and responds to it perfectly, like this one. Se approached my feelings of loneliness by sharing hes part of unconsciousness. Hello Tomorrow is a phrase se put to end the song. I think it's wonderful. <3<3
Ahh, it's gonna be a long, long night again..
