Following our last post, the day after, the Water Bearer again went to say goodbye to the Cryier. Since we weren't planning to return to Jily anytime soon, I went with hem to the Cryier's house. But on our way there, we met hem on the road, so the three of us went into a nearby cafe to have our last talk.
TC: I've heard quite a lot about you.
TT: Really. That's nice. :>
WB: So tell us, how are things going?
TC: The mourning ends tomorrow, so I'll start working again the day after. Thanks for coming all the way to Jily just because of me.
WB: It'd be rude of us not to.
TC: *with a low voice* ... 'us'? What's se got to do with me?
WB: Did you say something?
TC: No, nothing. :) I wish we could talk in private though, just the two of us. *glancing at the Twins*
The Water Bearer and I looked at each other. I shrugged and we smiled.
WB: Sorry, but today is our last day here, so we're both here to bid you goodbye.
TC: Last day? You mean.. you're leaving again?
WB: Yeah, we need to get back now. The rest of us are waiting.
TC: Who?
WB: Our companions.
TC: And I'm not?
TT: No.
TC: *glares at the Twins* I wasn't asking you.
TT: *laughs*
WB: It's true. The Twins was joking, but I'm not. You're a friend, you're not my comrade.
TC: *angry* Fine. So my status IS lower than people like hem. *glaring*
WB: Exactly.
TC: You must be the one who made hem like this.
TT: Probably. I'd hate to make you upset, but I'd hate it more to intrude where I shouldn't be, so I chose to let hem be the way se is.
TC: You think you shouldn't intrude yet you can't even consider about leaving us alone??
TT: I think you've had enough time alone. ;)
TC: !!.... sure. We had a nice time alone last night, just the two of us. *proudly*
WB: Shut up!
TC: *ignoring* Let me tell you that we had the best time in our lives once you're out of sight. The way se held me yesterday told me that you're not as great as you think you are.
TT: Oh, was it fun taking over what's not rightfully yours?
TC: Totally.
WB: *panicks*
TT: Relax. I'm not jealous at all.
TC: Oh you're so sure?
TT: Definitely. :>
TC: With an attitude like that, anyone can take hem away from you anytime. And I'll show you exactly how that will happen one day.
The Water Bearer looked uneasy, so I draped my arm around hem and held hem close to me.
TT: What are you so worried about?
WB: You're really serious about that?
TT: About what?
WB: When you said that you wouldn't mind if I stayed over at hes house.
TT: Of course I'm serious.
WB: I thought for a moment that you were angry..
TC: Wait just a minute! What are you talking about?!
TT: *ignoring the Cryier* Look, I'm serious about that, so don't you go off worrying yourself like that. What should I do if you fall sick from stress? *teasing*
WB: *relieved sigh* Coz it's not something to joke about.
TC: Don't you ignore me!
TT: My bad, my bad. What was your question again? XP
WB: *giggles at the Twins' carefree attitude*
TC: You...!!
TT: Calm down. Anger isn't good for you. And we're in public, so don't attract any unnecessary attention.
TC: *with a loud voice* How can I-?!
Before the Cryier could finish hes sentence, the Water Bearer knocked hem unconscious and we carried hem outside. We took hem to hes house and waited till se regained consciousness.
TC: You... you really hit me??
WB: Was there any other option?
TC: Then what was last night? How can you be so kind to me yesterday but so cruel as soon as this &%!# is with you??
WB: Then I regret whatever happened last night. Take it that nothing ever happened!
TC: Nothing? Nothing?? Sure, after I tell this &%!# what you did with me!
TT: Spare me. I already know every little detail.
TC: Oh are you sure? You don't want to know why se didn't return last night?
TT: Sure. Se asked my permission, and I gave hem.
WB: In other words, the Twins was the one who encouraged me to stay over. Had it been just me, I would've left as soon as I tell you the truth about me.
TC: *too shocked too say anything*
TT: Think we said too much?
WB: Nah. Se wants the truth so much, we should give hem. *sneering*
At this point I could see that the Cryier was thinking about going to the kitchen and cutting hes wrist.
TT: It'd be troublesome if se kills hemself though. We need to get back early.
WB: Yeah, getting the police all around us will delay us for too long. So, farewell. See you again, if I ever return to Jily.
As the Water Bearer got out the front door, I walked up to the Cryier and looked at hem in the face.
TT: We came here with good intentions, but you spoiled it yourself. Try to accept the truth next time. *grabbing hes shoulder* You're really cute, but it would be nicer if you could try being a nicer person. ;D
After I said that, the Cryier broke down crying on the floor. I felt like I could do nothing more there, so we left Jily. And that's how the Cryier got hes name.
I wasn't expecting much, but about a week after that the Cryier called the Water Bearer on the phone. I didn't ask hem what they talked about, but I do know that since then se blocked the Cryier's number on hes cell. I know se would return one day though. For now, I don't need to worry about rivalries. >D
First love?
Recently the parent of the Water Bearer's friend passed away, so we went to Jily to attend the funeral. The friend, let's call hem the Cryier, was expecting the Water Bearer, but was the least expecting hem to bring someone, which was me. I don't remember anything peculiar, but later that day the Water Bearer did mention to me that the Cryier doesn't seem to like me. At first I thought it sounded fun. I'd always loved toying with people's hearts, truth to tell, so getting someone to like me is like a game where I always win. But when the Water Bearer noticed what I was planning, se told me that it won't be that easy. Because the Cryier was the Water Bearer's ex. Or to be more exact (according to hem), the Water Bearer was the Cryier's first crush, and they dated for a few months till the Water Bearer confessed to hem that se didn't intend to keep on pretending loving someone that se never loved. As the Cryier got more and more persistent about keeping up their relationship, the Water Bearer moved out of Jily.
Anyway, since I knew I would be in the way, I left the two together for a few days, and this was one of their conversations. (I wasn't snooping, I just write what se told me. ;D ) Of course, I kinked up a few sentences to make it look less awkward and more dramatic. >D
WB: I feel sorry for your loss.
TC: Nah. Se'd been ill for a long time. I was prepared for this.
WB: Yeah? I was insensitive. Sorry.
TC: You never change.
WB: I don't?
TC: Just like you when we first met. So kind and caring.
WB: ...
TC: You're very thoughtful of others, you must have a lot of people who like you. ....yes, people like that person yesterday.
WB: The Twins?
TC: The Twins, is that hes name?
WB: No, I mean,.. well, sort of.
TC: Is se... someone important?
WB: ... let's not talk about me. I heard you're dating a certain person. How is se?
TC: Which one?
WB: Which one..?
TC: I change my partner quite often since you left. I couldn't find a replacement for you. Even till now.
WB: You've been... waiting for me?
TC: Don't be silly.
WB: Phew. I knew you wouldn't.
TC: Of course I have.
WB: ?!!
TC: *hugging hem* There's no way I can forget you. You're the only one that I truly love.
WB: ... Forgive me. *pushing hem away* But your love is one-sided. I can't return your feelings.
TC: Is it hem?
WB: ...
TC: Speak to me. Is it the Twins?
WB: Se's-..
TC: When did you meet hem?
WB: 3 years ago.. probably.
TC: Probably? You don't even remember?
WB: *pissed off* Se comes and goes very often. And that's not even important.
TC: Se knows nothing about you. I've known you since we were 5! How can you think se would understand when you need someone when se's rarely with you?
WB: Stop it.
TC: What?
WB: I tried, I really tried. So I will tell you this; I'm just being kind to you because your parent just passed away. But if you say even a single bad word about hem, I'm going to hit you.
TC: *very shocked* You're being kind to me... because of that?? *taking hold of hes hands* It's a lie, isn't it? You're lying!
WB: *very stern* What makes you think I'm lying?
TC: I know you! You would never hurt a fly. I was the one who protected you when others picked on you, remember? You were too kind, so you were always being stomped on.
WB: *sneers* And have you ever known me to be lying?
TC: ...?
WB: *shaking hes hands free* I don't tell lies. And I never will.
TC: ...
WB: And I don't care even if you tell the whole world about who I used to be, but I am no longer that person you used to know. I've found who I want to be, and I will stay this way.
TC: It must be hem. Se changed you. *frustrated*
WB: God! *fed up* Don't involve hem! I didn't come here to quarrel with you, so stop it. Just stop it.
TC: *tears welling up* Why? Why is everyone leaving me?
WB: *feels guilty* Look, I didn't mean to be harsh.
TC: But you threatened me. *upset* You never said such things to me. Do you hate me that much?
WB: I don't hate you, you're my friend. I just... get fired up because you are my friend, and I.. expected you to respect my choice. *consoling*
TC: *sobbing* Don't be mean to me. I'm not used to it.
WB: I won't, I'll try not to.
After that the Cryier tried to convince the Water Bearer to stay over, but se refused. That night after we talked about it, I told hem that I wouldn't mind if se stayed over at the Cryier's, anyway it was all up to hem.
The next day.
TC: I'm sorry about yesterday.
WB: No, I was at fault too.
TC: So you do admit it.
WB: *annoyed*
TC: I guess I was too upset over my parent's death, so I couldn't think clearly. I just said what was in my mind, and that was stupid.
WB: *cooled down* Yeah, that happens.
TC: But I was serious about waiting for you all these years.
WB: ...
TC: Say... can I ask you something.
WB: Sure.
TC: If.. if this funeral never happened, when were you planning to return to Jily?
WB: *silent* When I have the time, I guess.
TC: Did you miss me? /:D
WB: *smiles* I call you now and then, so why should I?
TC: Speaking on the phone and meeting face to face is different. *sulking*
WB: Actually, I was afraid you won't let me go again if I return. ;D
TC: ...if you were alone, I will really keep you here. >D
WB: I wouldn't like that, really. ;P
TC: You don't like staying in Jily?
WB: *looking up at the sky and smiling thoughtfully* No, it's just that I've found more important things to do.
TC: *entranced and stares at hem* What is it...?
WB: ..Protecting the happiness of my companions.
TC: *giggles* You're talking like you're a guardian angel or something.
WB: /:)
TC: Where are you living now actually?
WB: I move a lot.
TC: And now?
WB: Ah, I remember now. Let's go to our old school.
TC: Don't change the subject. >D
WB: *dark grin* I can't tell you.
TC: Top secret? International spy from some secret agency? *teasing*
WB: Nothing of the sort.
Silence.
TC: What is it that I lack?
WB: Huh?
TC: I can't get it out of my mind. I tried, but I still can't.
WB: /:) What are you talking about?
TC: I never stopped liking you, but what is it that I lack? Or is there something in me that you despise?
WB: *smirks* Why did you like me?
TC: Not DID, I still do.
WB: *advancing upon hem* Do you really think you will like me as who I am now? *challenging smile*
TC: *panicks a little* Of-, of course I will! You are who you are.
WB: *laughs*
TC: You were teasing me, weren't you?
WB: *sneers* I don't need to test you, if you know my real face, you will hate me big time.
TC: Your.. real face? You mean you're still pretending in front of me?
WB: I'm not pretending. I'm just giving you a break. Because you used to be my friend. If you were someone else, do you think I would really bother to be so kind?
TC: ...this is a dream...
WB: This is real. THIS is me.
TC: !!
WB: So, you still think you can love me in this state? *smirks* I am not that quiet child you used to know. I've seen how rotten the world is, and I know what is real and what is not. By the way.
TC: ?
WB: Are you completely sure that it wasn't my looks that you fell for? Let me tell you, a lot of people do, and I despise every single one of them, except one of course, but I don't trust anyone who say they love me without trying to know who I am.
TC: But I DO know you!
WB: You've been with me for a long time, but you failed to understand me. That's where you lack.
TC: And se does?
WB: *proudly smiling* Se never needed to ask about what I feel, nor have I. And se speaks less than you, but se never speaks when it's unnecessary.
TC: I...?
WB: You talk too much, and you only express about yourself. The me that's in your mind is different from the me who I really am. You are selfish, but I can be more selfish than you. You think you should protect me, but I know I have the strength to protect people. You like my looks eventhough you know better that even in terms of appearances, you don't deserve me. You think I'm weak, on the other hand, I KNOW I can break your neck with one hand. Think I'd never kill a fly? You should see me when I bath in blood. And yet you say you know me. Aren't you ashamed?
TC: *stammers* I don't believe you.
WB: *smirks* See? You believe I'm that innocent, but you won't take me for who I'm in reality. You CANNOT accept what I am. I don't need a reason to choose the Twins, but do you know what se would say if I confess the same thing to hem?
TC: ... don't be kidding me.
WB: Se would carry on with the flow. Se doesn't view me as good or evil, but se uses reasons to understand what I said. Se says se loves my appearances, and that se would change me back should I ever change whether I like it or not. Se knows how narcissistic I could be, yet se likes it because that means I know the value of my existence. I'm arrogant and selfish, se knows it's because almost everyone else is worse. Se doesn't protect me like a weakling, but se watches my back. Even if you can do like se does, you're not hem.
TC: You mean.. even if I try to be like hem..?
WB: There is only one the Twins, and there is only one me.
TC: *silent*
WB: *smugs* Hate me now?
TC: I'm sorry...
WB: ...?
TC: I'm sorry for misunderstanding you for so long. I'm sorry for treating you like a weakling.
WB: Apology accepted.
TC: But I can still try, can't I?
WB: Better not. You can't win.... *remembers something and pales*
TC: What? Why are you looking like that?
WB: (The Twins told me to be kind to the Cryier, but what I did just now was definitely not! If the Twins knows about this... OMG OMG, I promised hem!!)
TC: What's wrong? You look pale.
WB: Nothing. Can you, forget what I said just now?
TC: What do you mean? I'm finally getting able to understand you!
WB: *sweat* It's not that... Aghh, never mind!
TC: You're acting weird..
WB: (Because I'm dating a weirdo..duh) <----#I was going to punish hem for thinking like this, but since se's too cute I just couldn't XD #
TC: Can you.. stay over tonight?
WB: ..yeah, sure.
The Water Bearer returned to our room the next morning.
To be continued. (probably)
Anyway, since I knew I would be in the way, I left the two together for a few days, and this was one of their conversations. (I wasn't snooping, I just write what se told me. ;D ) Of course, I kinked up a few sentences to make it look less awkward and more dramatic. >D
WB: I feel sorry for your loss.
TC: Nah. Se'd been ill for a long time. I was prepared for this.
WB: Yeah? I was insensitive. Sorry.
TC: You never change.
WB: I don't?
TC: Just like you when we first met. So kind and caring.
WB: ...
TC: You're very thoughtful of others, you must have a lot of people who like you. ....yes, people like that person yesterday.
WB: The Twins?
TC: The Twins, is that hes name?
WB: No, I mean,.. well, sort of.
TC: Is se... someone important?
WB: ... let's not talk about me. I heard you're dating a certain person. How is se?
TC: Which one?
WB: Which one..?
TC: I change my partner quite often since you left. I couldn't find a replacement for you. Even till now.
WB: You've been... waiting for me?
TC: Don't be silly.
WB: Phew. I knew you wouldn't.
TC: Of course I have.
WB: ?!!
TC: *hugging hem* There's no way I can forget you. You're the only one that I truly love.
WB: ... Forgive me. *pushing hem away* But your love is one-sided. I can't return your feelings.
TC: Is it hem?
WB: ...
TC: Speak to me. Is it the Twins?
WB: Se's-..
TC: When did you meet hem?
WB: 3 years ago.. probably.
TC: Probably? You don't even remember?
WB: *pissed off* Se comes and goes very often. And that's not even important.
TC: Se knows nothing about you. I've known you since we were 5! How can you think se would understand when you need someone when se's rarely with you?
WB: Stop it.
TC: What?
WB: I tried, I really tried. So I will tell you this; I'm just being kind to you because your parent just passed away. But if you say even a single bad word about hem, I'm going to hit you.
TC: *very shocked* You're being kind to me... because of that?? *taking hold of hes hands* It's a lie, isn't it? You're lying!
WB: *very stern* What makes you think I'm lying?
TC: I know you! You would never hurt a fly. I was the one who protected you when others picked on you, remember? You were too kind, so you were always being stomped on.
WB: *sneers* And have you ever known me to be lying?
TC: ...?
WB: *shaking hes hands free* I don't tell lies. And I never will.
TC: ...
WB: And I don't care even if you tell the whole world about who I used to be, but I am no longer that person you used to know. I've found who I want to be, and I will stay this way.
TC: It must be hem. Se changed you. *frustrated*
WB: God! *fed up* Don't involve hem! I didn't come here to quarrel with you, so stop it. Just stop it.
TC: *tears welling up* Why? Why is everyone leaving me?
WB: *feels guilty* Look, I didn't mean to be harsh.
TC: But you threatened me. *upset* You never said such things to me. Do you hate me that much?
WB: I don't hate you, you're my friend. I just... get fired up because you are my friend, and I.. expected you to respect my choice. *consoling*
TC: *sobbing* Don't be mean to me. I'm not used to it.
WB: I won't, I'll try not to.
After that the Cryier tried to convince the Water Bearer to stay over, but se refused. That night after we talked about it, I told hem that I wouldn't mind if se stayed over at the Cryier's, anyway it was all up to hem.
The next day.
TC: I'm sorry about yesterday.
WB: No, I was at fault too.
TC: So you do admit it.
WB: *annoyed*
TC: I guess I was too upset over my parent's death, so I couldn't think clearly. I just said what was in my mind, and that was stupid.
WB: *cooled down* Yeah, that happens.
TC: But I was serious about waiting for you all these years.
WB: ...
TC: Say... can I ask you something.
WB: Sure.
TC: If.. if this funeral never happened, when were you planning to return to Jily?
WB: *silent* When I have the time, I guess.
TC: Did you miss me? /:D
WB: *smiles* I call you now and then, so why should I?
TC: Speaking on the phone and meeting face to face is different. *sulking*
WB: Actually, I was afraid you won't let me go again if I return. ;D
TC: ...if you were alone, I will really keep you here. >D
WB: I wouldn't like that, really. ;P
TC: You don't like staying in Jily?
WB: *looking up at the sky and smiling thoughtfully* No, it's just that I've found more important things to do.
TC: *entranced and stares at hem* What is it...?
WB: ..Protecting the happiness of my companions.
TC: *giggles* You're talking like you're a guardian angel or something.
WB: /:)
TC: Where are you living now actually?
WB: I move a lot.
TC: And now?
WB: Ah, I remember now. Let's go to our old school.
TC: Don't change the subject. >D
WB: *dark grin* I can't tell you.
TC: Top secret? International spy from some secret agency? *teasing*
WB: Nothing of the sort.
Silence.
TC: What is it that I lack?
WB: Huh?
TC: I can't get it out of my mind. I tried, but I still can't.
WB: /:) What are you talking about?
TC: I never stopped liking you, but what is it that I lack? Or is there something in me that you despise?
WB: *smirks* Why did you like me?
TC: Not DID, I still do.
WB: *advancing upon hem* Do you really think you will like me as who I am now? *challenging smile*
TC: *panicks a little* Of-, of course I will! You are who you are.
WB: *laughs*
TC: You were teasing me, weren't you?
WB: *sneers* I don't need to test you, if you know my real face, you will hate me big time.
TC: Your.. real face? You mean you're still pretending in front of me?
WB: I'm not pretending. I'm just giving you a break. Because you used to be my friend. If you were someone else, do you think I would really bother to be so kind?
TC: ...this is a dream...
WB: This is real. THIS is me.
TC: !!
WB: So, you still think you can love me in this state? *smirks* I am not that quiet child you used to know. I've seen how rotten the world is, and I know what is real and what is not. By the way.
TC: ?
WB: Are you completely sure that it wasn't my looks that you fell for? Let me tell you, a lot of people do, and I despise every single one of them, except one of course, but I don't trust anyone who say they love me without trying to know who I am.
TC: But I DO know you!
WB: You've been with me for a long time, but you failed to understand me. That's where you lack.
TC: And se does?
WB: *proudly smiling* Se never needed to ask about what I feel, nor have I. And se speaks less than you, but se never speaks when it's unnecessary.
TC: I...?
WB: You talk too much, and you only express about yourself. The me that's in your mind is different from the me who I really am. You are selfish, but I can be more selfish than you. You think you should protect me, but I know I have the strength to protect people. You like my looks eventhough you know better that even in terms of appearances, you don't deserve me. You think I'm weak, on the other hand, I KNOW I can break your neck with one hand. Think I'd never kill a fly? You should see me when I bath in blood. And yet you say you know me. Aren't you ashamed?
TC: *stammers* I don't believe you.
WB: *smirks* See? You believe I'm that innocent, but you won't take me for who I'm in reality. You CANNOT accept what I am. I don't need a reason to choose the Twins, but do you know what se would say if I confess the same thing to hem?
TC: ... don't be kidding me.
WB: Se would carry on with the flow. Se doesn't view me as good or evil, but se uses reasons to understand what I said. Se says se loves my appearances, and that se would change me back should I ever change whether I like it or not. Se knows how narcissistic I could be, yet se likes it because that means I know the value of my existence. I'm arrogant and selfish, se knows it's because almost everyone else is worse. Se doesn't protect me like a weakling, but se watches my back. Even if you can do like se does, you're not hem.
TC: You mean.. even if I try to be like hem..?
WB: There is only one the Twins, and there is only one me.
TC: *silent*
WB: *smugs* Hate me now?
TC: I'm sorry...
WB: ...?
TC: I'm sorry for misunderstanding you for so long. I'm sorry for treating you like a weakling.
WB: Apology accepted.
TC: But I can still try, can't I?
WB: Better not. You can't win.... *remembers something and pales*
TC: What? Why are you looking like that?
WB: (The Twins told me to be kind to the Cryier, but what I did just now was definitely not! If the Twins knows about this... OMG OMG, I promised hem!!)
TC: What's wrong? You look pale.
WB: Nothing. Can you, forget what I said just now?
TC: What do you mean? I'm finally getting able to understand you!
WB: *sweat* It's not that... Aghh, never mind!
TC: You're acting weird..
WB: (Because I'm dating a weirdo..duh) <----#I was going to punish hem for thinking like this, but since se's too cute I just couldn't XD #
TC: Can you.. stay over tonight?
WB: ..yeah, sure.
The Water Bearer returned to our room the next morning.
To be continued. (probably)
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